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8/6/2019

      I don’t tell people what happens in my life because even if they think they are helping they just say I have the same feelings as everyone else. I promise that I don’t. They may be similar, but they will never be the same as someone else’s. So when you ask why I don’t say anything or when you ask why I keep everything inside, or when you get offended when I don’t tell you what’s wrong, remember that even though none of you try to, you put me in line with all the rest of them.

     You categorize me as such with everyone else and believe that since other people have felt it and have thought it, that it’s fine that it’s just a phase or that I’ve been watching too much tv. And when that happens it hurts. In truth it hurts.

      To know that the people I trust will just throw me in with everyone else. Well I am not everyone else and I sure as hell do not have the same feelings they do. What I feel may be similar to theirs, but never will I ever feel the same way as they do. Never.

      I am my own person. I have my own issues. I have my own pains. I have my own fears. I have my own happiness. I have my own depression. I have my own suicidal moments. I have my own everything. No way in hell is it the same as someone else’s.

     It may be similar but in no way is it the same. The depth of how I may feel will never measure up to someone else. The process in which I deal with it all will never be the same as another person. So never tell me that what I feel, or think is whatever because everyone else has thought or felt the same thing. Don’t give me that. That’s not nice. That hurts.

-Annabelle

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Façades

8/6/2019

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     With grace, they filtered out words that could make even the most stubborn of people willing to comply. With vigilance they mastered everything thrown their way, leading them to become unstoppable. But with love they never gave it nor accepted it, for fear that they would either be hurt or be the ones hurting others. With understanding, there wasn’t any form of emotional torment that they weren’t familiar with and subject to. With compassion they never received so therefore they never gave; they were indifferent to it as if it wasn’t even a concept to them at all.

     Their mental capacities matched no other. Their people skills were some to be admired but never underestimated. But what can they do if those around them saw them all for nothing but the facades they displayed? I’ve gotten to know these so called “monsters” you all see them to be. You’re all fools for believing everything you see without daring to question whether it was real or not. Because these “monsters” you see are nothing but the sweetest people alive and I’ll be damned if I ever let any of you hurt them.

      You don’t get it because you are afraid that they can actually be good people, well news flash dumbos, they’re all really good people with big hearts and I stand true to my word forever and always. Now I admit that I wasn’t so sure in the beginning and that I was afraid of what would become of me knowing them but to tell you the truth, it was the best damn decision I’ve ever made. So, don’t judge someone for their facade when you don’t know the whole damn story. I did and I regret it deeply, but I changed my view. You can too.

-Annabelle

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Family

7/15/2019

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Walking through the doors of the place you feel most at home and letting all of the hard times wash over you, letting all the good times sink in and just remembering that it’s all worth it. Every fracture that forms will soon be smoothed over, every divide will come back together. Family is like concrete. Stays together no matter what and it may be fractured from time to time. But it can always be fused back together. Whatever the damages that can still be seen are only proof that family will come with fractures and cracks in the foundation at times but it will always stay together no matter what.

And soon, you’ll come to find that H.A.R.C is as much like a family to each other and hopefully one day we will become your family too.

-Annabelle

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Annabelle

7/13/2019

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So hey I’m Annabelle and I’m one to enjoy to smell of hay, horsehair and even wet horse if we’re going there. I have been with H.A.R.C for almost ten or eleven years now and every moment has made me better in every way and because of that, I feel comfortable in sharing it with you guys. There isn’t much you will entirely be able to figure out about me because I prefer to keep myself hidden until I need to open up, but since it’s time to get real I will open up to you guys.

So when I first started with H.A.R.C, I was shy and I was not confident in who I was and what I did. There wasn’t a good chance of anyone being able to get me to speak up or talk I’m general unless they really asked me to. But over the eleven years that I’ve been working with H.A.R.C, I’ve come to understand the time, patience and persistence it takes to get someone to where they need/want to be in life and I think any knowledge like that, is the best knowledge to have over everything else.

So H.A.R.C has been like a second space for me over the years and when I’m there and around the horses and the other people who are there, I can feel comfortable enough to know that I can say something about whatever may or may not be bugging me, but I also feel secure about being able to say what I need to and not having anyone get upset at me or anything like that. So all in all I can 100% guarantee that if you come down and you start working with H.A.R.C, that you’ll come to grow ten times more confident about every single detail about who you are and what makes you tick then you were before you started working around these people.

I’m being 100% honest here there is not one single doubt in my mind that you won’t feel better about yourself and like you have more control over your life. Someone up there somewhere above is looking after me because I swear that H.A.R.C has been my saving grace. I wouldn’t change any of the hardships I’ve gone through, any of the painful situations I’ve been in...I wouldn’t change any of it because I wouldn’t have found H.A.R.C if it weren’t for the path I was lead down. I promise you that you aren’t alone in what you’re going through or what goes on inside your head okay? I promise because I’ve been there too I have. H.A.R.C is a safe place and there is no need for you to be frightened, I promise.

-Annabelle

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